An awful incident

OKAY! last week was one of the worst week of my life.. i ran over a dog and killed it! *cry cry cry**
it was an accident because the dog just suddenly ran past my ride when i was riding it, which in about 5-10 kmh but still guilt is all i felt and i couldnt felt anything (i didnt even cry!) until i got home. my mom and dad told me that maybe i wasnt in a "good aura" so it was like a signal for me to be careful, because just couple hours before it happened, one car and one motorcycle nearly hit me because they make the turn just so sudden without any sign (two times at a time),

niwei by then i decided my plan to go clubbing with my gurls because i dont feel like leaving home, i was okay until my boyfriend showed up at my room and asked what has happened, i dont know why, just after i saw my boyfriend i couldnt stop crying, it's like all the images appears in my head and wouldnt stop spinning, i cried on his shoulder for about half an hour (i know.. dont say anything), good thing from he, he's there at the right time when i need him the most.. by time when i get better, he took me for a late dinner and then he mentioned that couple days ago when he was taking me home with motorcycle, a dog chase and bark at us.. and i just remembered.. that's the dog that i hit! i have the chill when i figured it out.. maybe he's always has a feeling that im going to do something bad to him the next couple days.. but i never meant to hurt any animals.. especially dogs.. i love dog and typing this blog already make my eyes so blurry *sob sobb**

im so sorry doggy.. may you rest in peace.. :(((